Each word was a terrible force and it was beating down on him hard. And he could feel every crack and chip it was making on him and this hurt more then any fight he got into with some no named bully. This hurt more then every terrible word thrown at him. Because those people didn't matter. Their opinions weren't something he ever had to take into account because they were just people trying to hurt him.

But Jade was different. This was someone that he called a best friend. Someone that he let into his life because they were someone he wanted in his life. And now she wanted him gone. Dead.

And what the fuck did that even mean? Sis was pretty fucking real. She raised him. Why was he being told she wasn't real? Maybe his memories were fucked up too. Maybe he was forgetting shit and replacing others and now he isn't so sure what's true and what's not.

He wanted to vow with Jade. He just...he didn't get to her quick enough. But he thought she was fine with Marisa. She seemed fine with it despite everything. They couldn't touch or hold hands, but they could still hang out and be friends. And he only vowed with John because John was nearby at the time and he didn't want someone to get to John before him what happened with Jade. And...he didn't mean to not vow with Jade. That if he had gotten to her in time, he would have, but he just didn't. And Dave just felt so terrible because he fucked up so much and he didn't even realize it.