He knows everyone was dead. Mostly everyone. And in some timelines, he's the only one left. In some timelines the four of them are dying. And god, there were so many timelines where some of them were dead and others weren't and the amount of Doomed timelines were unimaginable because every little thing they said or do could very well create a new one. He didn't need to be told what their stupid session created. And the worst part was, it wasn't even necessarily their game that caused it. The world could have been fucked even if they didn't play. He could just never guess which one it was and sometimes he believe one or the other because sometimes he couldn't decide.
But he didn't care about that at the moment. Because Jade said the one thing he was terrified of ever hearing her say. Something that he's heard in his dreams, that made the ones of him dying all that much better because what would he have if his friends didn't want him around anymore? He'd just be that stupid mute kid with the creepy red eyes who only had his Sis and no one else. And for awhile, it was like that and he didn't want it to be like that anymore.
And god damn it, he's trying to not cry so hard but his whole body was shaking (and not from the cold), and he has to back up a bit because Jade didn't want him near her anymore. And he's gritting his teeth and trying to make it all stop, but he's crying anyways because it's impossible not to cry. Not when she's hurting herself because he was a fuck up. And he just looked so pitiful crying, tears streaming down behind his shades and he made no noises, because he can't really make noises, so he's just shaking and crying and he just finally nods. If Jade didn't want him to talk to her anymore, he wouldn't talk to her anymore. Even if he really wanted to talk to her because she was his friend, except they weren't friends anymore. Because he was pretty sure Jade hated him and probably didn't say it because Jade was too nice for that shit. So really, she's just saying it in another way, but he's just pretty sure she fucking hates him because he let her fucking die and didn't do anything to prevent it. And maybe because he can't save anyone because, he isn't a hero. He never was. Dave was just some kid fucking up timelines left and right trying to make things right.
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But he didn't care about that at the moment. Because Jade said the one thing he was terrified of ever hearing her say. Something that he's heard in his dreams, that made the ones of him dying all that much better because what would he have if his friends didn't want him around anymore? He'd just be that stupid mute kid with the creepy red eyes who only had his Sis and no one else. And for awhile, it was like that and he didn't want it to be like that anymore.
And god damn it, he's trying to not cry so hard but his whole body was shaking (and not from the cold), and he has to back up a bit because Jade didn't want him near her anymore. And he's gritting his teeth and trying to make it all stop, but he's crying anyways because it's impossible not to cry. Not when she's hurting herself because he was a fuck up. And he just looked so pitiful crying, tears streaming down behind his shades and he made no noises, because he can't really make noises, so he's just shaking and crying and he just finally nods. If Jade didn't want him to talk to her anymore, he wouldn't talk to her anymore. Even if he really wanted to talk to her because she was his friend, except they weren't friends anymore. Because he was pretty sure Jade hated him and probably didn't say it because Jade was too nice for that shit. So really, she's just saying it in another way, but he's just pretty sure she fucking hates him because he let her fucking die and didn't do anything to prevent it. And maybe because he can't save anyone because, he isn't a hero. He never was. Dave was just some kid fucking up timelines left and right trying to make things right.