Waking up [open]

[swordofzero]

Characters: Suzaku and anyone whose name is not Lelouch anyone
Format: Starting in prose but happy to switch
This log is: Open
Location: Conquest infirmary and then by the lake
Summary: On Wednesday Lelouch and Suzaku had a bit of an argument. Now on Saturday afternoon Suzaku wakes up from his coma, come visit?
Warnings: all the angst, lots of spoilers, usual Geass drama

[Open in the infirmary] Suzaku's eyes flickered open and he frowned as he slowly made sense of the new surroundings. He knew where he was quickly as he had spent a lot of time in the infirmary when Nunnally had been unconscious. He sat up slightly feeling dizzy and letting what he remembered wash over him.

In the dungeon, with Zero. Yes... Lelouch was Zero... Suzaku stared at his memory charm bracelet. Lelouch was Zero but he was also the emperor Suzaku had promised to serve. To bring about Zero Requiem.

He remembered Lelouch shouting at him, shooting his Weapon. He hated him... because Suzaku and Lelouch had spoken about what Lelouch knew and Suzaku knew that he somehow came from a later point in time than Lelouch... Lelouch knew nothing about Suzaku being his knight.

His hands went to the necklace round his neck trying to pull it off. No matter how hard he pulled it was stuck fast. He couldn't take it off... Linked to Lelouch... to Zero. To Lelouch who still believed Zero's ways to be the way to change the world.

He clenched his fists, not knowing what to think or what to do. Angry and guilty, he thought he finally had it worked out but now he was confused again, not knowing what to do.


[Private PDA text to Dolorosa] Dolorosa, it is Suzaku Kururugi from Conquest. Can I talk to you please.


[Later at the lake side] When Suzaku was finally released from the infirmary after he had eaten and changed he went to the lake. The ship was gone now, the waters remarkably calm. He sat staring out at the water, trying to piece together his thoughts. To work out what to do.

Comments

[trollofthree]

"-- totally comatose," the voice - likely both recognisable and unwelcome - filtered in from the corridor. "Not much to record, but Suzaku's Suzaku, right?"

The footsteps halted, and there was the briefest of pauses as the arrivals apparently spent half a second contemplating knocking. And then discarded that idea completely. The door opened rather suddenly.

"Ta-da, one kni-- Oh, hey. He's awake."

[brbdocumenting]

Anya was following behind Gino, listening to him babble on about what was going on and how Suzaku was in a coma until they finally reached the medical bay and it turns out he woke up. Maybe Anya is his lucky charm or something. Gino didn't enter the room so Anya was stuck peeking at Suzaku from behind Gino's massive body, seriously how are you that tall it's not fair.

"Suzaku," she nods over at him as a greeting.

[swordofzero]

Suzaku looked around at the words and blinked at Gino. "Oh..." He wasn't sure why Gino was here, they hadn't really spoken all that much. Suzaku knew that Gino came from his future but to Suzaku the last time he had seen Gino he had been trying to kill him. It made conversations strained.

His eyes widened at the familiar pink hair. "Anya?"

he drains the height of others like some kind of height leech

[trollofthree]

"I found her at the station!" He almost sang it, walking further into the room and, after a moment's hmming and haaing, ignoring the rickety visitor's chair to sit on the end of Suzaku's bed instead. If there was any strain to the conversation, he'd clearly made the executive decision to totally forget about it. "You woke up too early, man. I was gonna draw on your face."

height leech sounds like a good band name

[brbdocumenting]

She nods again at her name. It was curious, they both acted like they haven't seen her in such a long time but she was sure she just saw both of them not too long ago. She briefly thinks about what Dirk told her about timelines but shakes off the idea rather quickly, that's impossible. She knows what year it is.

At Gino's admission she walks over and shows Suzaku the markers they were going to use, really they were fully prepared to draw on him. Whiskers maybe, that would have been a good touch.

[swordofzero]

Suzaku shook his head, slightly amused despite everything. "I'm glad I woke when I did then."

[trollofthree]

Then they were doing their self-appointed job. "Nah. You're still shaky, right? We've got time."

Oh, right. "Speaking of time! Anya's in Fortitude, so we'll have to sneak her into campus if we want to hang out together next week."

Private

[mamarosa]

Hello Suzaku, how may I help you?

Private

[swordofzero]

I remembered who Zero is.

Private

[mamarosa]

[it takes a few moments for her to answer]

Is this a conversation you would prefer to have in person?

Private

[swordofzero]

[It is even longer before he answers.] Perhaps that would be for the best.

Private

[mamarosa]

I was informed that you were in a coma for a few days, would you rather I visit you in the medical bay or would you find my office a more secure place?

Private

[swordofzero]

I can come to your office. If they let me, they told me I was to stay in bed. [Guess who isn't happy with that order.]

[At the lake, after he talks to Dolorosa]

[veepofchess]

Lelouch had earned himself some time to make some plans, run some interference, and finally sift through the memories he'd acted on so rashly. Finally, they made sense. He knew he'd been unreasonable. Nunnally had said that she hadn't been harmed in any way whatsoever by FLEIJA, and other things they'd discussed when they'd seen each other again matched up with what Suzaku claimed. And that's not even taking into account Gino's actions on the train. And it couldn't be a case of memory losses, because it would be far too much of a coincidence for everyone's memory to be modified in such specific ways.

So he checked a few likely places for Suzaku to be, and was not surprised to find him back here, as close to the scene of the crime as he could get.

"...And yet, I chose you as my knight, and I will always entrust Rolo and Nunnally's safety to you," he said, as though continuing their earlier conversation.

[swordofzero]

Suzaku glanced round at the sound not even needing to check to know who it was. His eyes quickly returned to the lake as he mulled the words in his mind. They weren't angry or full of hatred like on the ship, but those ones rang clear in Suzaku's mind. He had done many things that he was not proud of, that he shouldn't have done.

"Do you regret it?" Could you even regret things you hadn't technically done yet?

[veepofchess]

He responds quickly. "No." He comes to a stop directly beside Suzaku, staring similarly out over the lake. But his eyes were on that tower they'd visited before. Considering all of the information, that was the only conclusion he could reach. There was literally no one else he could entrust with the duties to which Suzaku would have to be assigned.

"Did you tell her the truth?" He meant Dolorosa, of course.

[swordofzero]

Suzaku glanced to the side and then at the island. He didn't know what to think, if Lelouch was not angry anymore. It did not change the fact that Lelouch only knew Suzaku as having betrayed him, almost killing his sister, filled with anger over the fact that he had killed Euphie...

The anger was still there but muted, no more driven. Towards their goal of creating a peaceful world for Nunnally, a world where their own crimes would cause so much blood and so many tears that it would wash away Euphies crimes.

Lelouch had been his enemy and before that his friend. His first friend, for a very long time his only friend. Now he was neither...

He nodded turning to face Lelouch. "You could have hurt someone."

[veepofchess]

He could have defended himself, he could have told him that the charge was shaped perfectly, and that there was no way he could have known there was a personal connection to any of the existing staff members. He would have preferred that it was Day, but things had ended up the way they were. There was nothing he could have done about that. But he let Suzaku's comment remain where it was, unchallenged.

"I've learned a lot about those towers since that day. Would you accompany me in finally discovering their true nature?" The conditions for that were nearly clear, once he had convinced a few more stubborn individuals....

[swordofzero]

An uneasy silence, Lelouch could of harmed others and Suzaku had told Dolorosa Zero's identity. Suzaku didn't speak, he didn't regret telling Dolorosa and he did not think it would harm their chances of escaping this place.

He stared out at the tower, he had no doubt that they held the secret to their escape, for they didn't seem to serve any other purpose. He nodded, turning to face Lelouch and brought his arm up to his chest. "Yes my lord."

At the lake!

[countryofassholes]

"Good morning." A familiar voice chimed in from behind Suzaku as a pair of arms wound their way around his shoulders and a chin came to a rest on his head. As she settled herself comfortably against the knight, a smile quirked Britannia's lips as green eyes glanced down at that mop of brown hair.

"Feeling better?"

/makes it after he talks to Lelouch

[swordofzero]

Suzaku stiffened as he felt arms wrapping around him, since he had already seen Gino today he guessed even before she spoke that this was Britannia. "You're heavy you know."

He shrugged at the question, he wasn't sure how he was feeling at all.

Time paradooooooox~

[countryofassholes]

"Of course I am, I'm the largest empire in the world." Britannia replied calmly as she gave his head a fond pat before settling down beside him. He had his 'thinking' face on again, she noted absently, something she was quick to point out to the knight by pressing her finger against his brow between his eyes.

"You're getting wrinkles."

[swordofzero]

Suzaku was relieved when she stopped draping on him, he had enough to try and wrap his head around without being smothered.

Of course his peace only lasted a few moments before she started poking him. He stared into the lake. "Did you need anything Britannia?"

[countryofassholes]

At the question, Britannia gave him one more light prod before pulling away. Leaning back and resting on her elbows as she glanced up at the sky, she admitted: "Not particularly."

It wasn't as if she had anything demanding to do these days. As far as explorations of the island went, her searches had yielded very little in terms of usefulness and she had eventually given up the task altogether, coming to the conclusion that if two weeks of searching told her nothing, another two would be the same.

Although, she should probably go searching for Cornelia soon to reveal her identity to the princess as she had done for Lelouch. After all, as far as the chain of command was concerned? Cornelia ranked much higher than her current would-be Emperor, which meant she should now be taking her directions from her. However, that wasn't a meeting she was looking forward to which was why she intended to put it off as long as she could.

With a sigh, Britannia quietly brought her hand up and ran it through her hair, uncharacteristically messing up the blonde locks, as she turned her eyes upon the troubled knight again and gave him a silent look over, feeling annoyed that he was still so down. "How long are you going to brood?"

until the world makes sense!

[swordofzero]

Suzaku was relieved that she had given up poking him, he didn't mind her presence when she wasn't draping on him. Even though he was still confused, it was easier when he made himself forget she was the physical manifestation of the empire that had taken over a third of the world, the empire he had sworn to change, the empire he was helping to slowly dismantle.

He shrugged staring over the lake, "I'm not brooding." He was thinking, trying to work things out, work out what to do next. In other words he was brooding.