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[frozenmemories]

Characters: Cirno and whoever decides to try and understand her
Format:Any!
This log is: OPEN
Location: Lakeside
Summary: Cirno is going to find out what just happened

Cirno was just stareing at her PDA. She had come over to the lake as usual to think over the past round. It was her usual spot if she didn't have anything to do and the waters let her mind wander a bit more then she would usualy. That message had her confused as did the sender.

The system is undergoing maintenance. Please pardon any difficulties in the near future. - Kotaro

As she was stareing, That's when the penalty hit and she went down on the ground to curl up in a ball. She felt that at least this way, no one could see that this hurt her, even if she was alone. She kept that way for a while, at least ten minutes past the ending of it, nto sure if that was it or not.

As she sat up once more and reached for the blank PDA she spoke to herself mostly, "Tame ni sono nandatta no... ? Dareka ga futatabi orokana nanika o shinakatta..." 1

She looked about and frowned, "To watashi wa densha no naka de kare o mimasendeshita. ... Shin Kotaro ga modotte teniireta... Nani ga okotte iru nodeshou ka?"2

She's going to be there a while trying to figure out what is going on...




((OOC- She speaks in Japanese but unless you know her well, her accent or just how she says things makes no sense. GOOD LUCK!
Translations!
1- What was that for...? Did somebody do something stupid again...
2- And when did Kotaro get back....I didn't see him on the train...What's going on?))

Comments

[justaflowergirl]

"There have been so many things..." Yuka mused.

It was strange... at times, this place reminded her so much of home. But other times... well. Life in Gensokyo was often violent, and Yuka was comfortable with that, for in large part she was a creature of violence. (Although an outside observer might have argued the point, confusing hostility with violence.) But it was rarely cruel.

Here, it seemed that cruelty was always standing by, to be dispensed at whim. Or was it? Malice wasn't a requirement to do harm.

She didn't know enough. Perhaps in time she'd learn. But more likely, she'd just muddle through on instinct. She was trying to uphold the best traditions of home, wasn't she?

"... That's what you were talking about before, wasn't it? The thing that happens when someone goes below zero raks." (Having a negative amount of a physical object struck Yuka as a pretty strange idea, but she thought she'd grasped the practical point.)

[frozenmemories]

Cirno just nodded a bit, sighing deeply. "Yes..Until the person gets at least to zero someone gets hit with a major penalty every hour on the hour....It lasted a long time...8 people got hit. And we can't just say who it is or give them raks." She would have stopped it early if she could have.

She takes one bare foot into her hand, trying to keep her focus on something. She just didn't want to look up just yet. "A lot has happened and some of it just starts to show up again...Every time I try to make friends or be somewhat happy...I get knocked back down. So instead, I just let everyone else be happy and think I'm okay...I even sold a memory that made me sad to try and help with that."

She shrugs a bit. She had built up walls around her without knowing it and now that she was faced with them, she didn't know what to do. Cirno sighs a bit and mumbles softly, "I'm just worried that...I'll get close and this place will tear whatever that is away...I wanna believe that it won't happen..."

And she's come full circle it seems. Back to her original problem that she had said in the very beginning.

[justaflowergirl]

"That's something everyone wants, I think, to not be hurt... But I don't think we can cut ourselves off and live. I nearly..." Yuka stopped and shook her head. That was something better left in the past.

"Maybe that shrine maiden would have some kind of answer. (Isn't that kind of thing supposed to be part of the job?) But I think not taking that risk is worse. Even through hurt and loss, if we keep scraping together what good we can, maybe it will become something great in the end..."

[frozenmemories]

Cirno nods slowly, She understood but at the same time, she was clinging to what she had been doing. Habits were hard to break, especially when they were done without a second thought anymore. She let go of her foot and clenched both of her fists tightly.

"I'm tired of crying...Tired of not being able to say Goodbye and not knowing if I'll ever see them again. This place does not play fair...and I do not like what it's done. I wanna trust and not worry. I wanna be able to make friends like normal." She tenses for a second and brings her fist down on her leg near her knee in frustration. She winces a bit at the pain but keeps going."

"I'm tired of being like this. I..I..I just don't know how to fix it.

[justaflowergirl]

Yuka shifted a bit so she could give Cirno a hug. "There's no secret to it, I think. We just keep trying. Some days are better than others, but if you keep trying... eventually it gets better."

[frozenmemories]

Cirno relaxed in the hug and hugged back. She was feeling a bit better, actually coming out and saying what she felt and it showed.

"I'll try...I really will. I promise."

A slow smile crosses her face as she speaks again, "This place brought me down..but I wanna come back fighting. Show them they can't bring me down again!"