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Characters: Jake, Jane, and Dirk
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Location: The Infirmary > Fortitude prefect dorms
Summary: Two canon updates and a coma
Warnings: Sads about canon!deaths, crying boys, and kissing

It was too strange to call it all a dream. Usually when you wake up from a dream, you're fighting to remember the lucid details before they slip right through your fingers. No, this was kind of the opposite. As soon as Jake opened his eyes and blearily found himself awake and aware he was slammed with what he could only liken to gaining a memory charm.

Only this seemed so much more than just one silly memory. It was a great number of things accompanied by a growing headache that made him nearly cry out with pain.

He needed to stop collecting head injuries. Jade was going to have his hide.

Looking back, he probably should have paused to take some notes before even these details slipped beyond his memory, but he was far too distracted by one huge glaring problem pounding in the back of his mind. Jane.

Jane was run through by a bunch of sinister red sentient vines. Jane was laying dead on the ground before he was dragged off again. He needed to make sure she was all right here, he needed to get the freaking heck out of bed. What the hell was brobot doing here? Nevermind he had to find Jane ASAP. At least he could just keep repeating to himself that she was okay here, and he could try and stave back the fact that he was in tears back home. Fuck. Fuck.

He made a wild dash out of the infirmary, paused to gain his bearings, and then ran for the dorms.

Of course he was terribly confused when he found out she was no longer in the room she was supposed to be in, and instead was directed towards the prefect dorms. What? Okay maybe she was in their room. Right, that's a perfectly rational deduction, okay. Good. Go.

He practically tore the door off the hinges when he made it to his room.

...

Uh.

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Oh jesus. Oh holy. Oh something. Dirk just offhandedly stole her first kiss because of what now? She is still freaking the out, red face and all. Oh my god.

"Morning." Keep your cool Crocker, you can do this. Pretend that shit never happened.

...Okay, what ever he just witnessed was extremely confusing and he was just not going to think about it right now. All that mattered was that Jane was sitting up, looking around, and breathing.

She was alive. She was okay. She--

It was like everything had caught up with him from his desperate run over here and all he could see was her laying there dead.

He made a poor attempt at returning the greeting, only to bring a hand up to cover his mouth because wow his voice was doing this funny unsteady thing. Haha, and now he couldn't see, shit. English, get it together, she's right there.

Dirk covered his mouth at the same time as Jake, sitting back on his butt to give Jane some space. Seeing her alive like this gave him time to put his memories together -- right, this is Rakuen, Jane was from before that happened, and Dirk had been too until just now.

He glanced over at Jake. Well, he looked upset. "Sorry, bro. I wasn't trying to move in on your girl. I can explain, I swear." And he waved a hand to gesture Jake and Brobot into the room.

Brobot tossed Dirk's PDA to him. When Jane would think to check hers, there would be a message informing her Jake was awake.

"I'm no one's girl!" Jane blurts out on the opposite side of the bed, bringing up the covers to cover up her extremely embarrassed face. She couldn't handle this at all. She wasn't even sure what to say.

"What is wrong with you two this morning?" Alright, that was a start on what to say. She wasn't sure what was going on- they both looked equally upset.

"No! Strider that isn't-" Shit, no he was trying to get it together okay. Give him a few moments. He wipes at his eyes and tries to clear his throat. Wow, he was putting off talking to her about his feelings on this whole thing with the two of them, he didn't need it brought up like that. Not when there was something so much more important going on.

He came a few steps in the room and let the door shut behind him

"I'm sorry. I don't know what's happened exactly but I just- suddenly remember a whole fat lot about the events going on back home and none of them are really any good. Jane- Would it be out of line to ask to hug you?"

"Oh." Oh that would explain it. Dirk slumped a little, as though Jake saying that made it okay to show a little weakness. "Same here. That is, I just remembered a lot of shit, too." Not that he wanted to hug her.

Not that he would mind hugging either of them right now. They were here and they were okay for now. Once they got back, though... Then what?

"Alright, so you've both remembered some things, and by the way you're asking me for a hug, English. I am free to assume this is about me?" She stands there for a moment, head down in thought. What could be happening?

Only a split second more and she opens her arms to both of them. "Come here you knuckleheads, I guess a hug isn't too out of line."

He doesn't quite have the presence of mind to answer her. Instead when she holds her arms out to them Jake is rushing to her side and pulling her into the biggest hug he can muster without actually hurting her.

Just. Do him a favor and ignore the sounds of mansobbing.

Dirk hesitates for a moment, but when Jake gathers Jane up and starts to cry he can't hold back. He moves over to awkwardly wrap his arms around the both of them and he hangs his head.

Jane wasn't sure what to make of the situation, but seeing them in such a bad position. A bad place in their new knowledge was difficult. She bit her lip, trying to be the stronger one here. Jake was literally bawling, and Dirk was suppressing it.

"Guys.." Oh, never mind, she started crying as well. "I can't fix anything if you don't tell me what is the matter."

He gets a good bit of it out of his system before he lets himself talk again. His voice is mostly under control.

He half debates with just not telling her but- somehow that seems wrong. What if they can find a way to prevent it. So he takes a deep breath.

"I saw you die."

When Jake says that, Dirk just about loses it. It's like he'd been holding the fact at bay, but Jake acknowledging it lets it burst through his mental barriers like the fucking Kool-Aid man. Dirk's arms tighten around the both of them and he grits his teeth.

"And I fucking got knocked out before I could do anything about it."

Oh, oh. She wouldn't be able to respond for a few moments. Her physical response is to bring Jake and Dirk closer to her and just cry. Jane hasn't had a good cry since being here. She hasn't cried out of frustration or anything. But just the mention, the thought of her dying is so realistic that its outlandish.

"I don't believe you." She manages to choke out. "You two must have been imagining this up. There is no way. I'm not dead where I'm at." She doesn't want to die, she's so afraid of death. "What could have killed me, what?"

That was a horrible response and he really should have expected it, but all it really did was make all of this worse. He held a little tighter, having at least sobbed himself out so all he was really doing was leaking facial fluid everywhere.

"Stringy red lashings from the sky, I don't know what they were. But I saw it, Jane. So did Strider, we were both there. Why would we lie?" He pulled back a little to look at her.

Okay.

When Jane says that Dirk has to tilt his head back and upward to look at the ceiling. It's not that he's about to cry, it's that...

it's that Jane is dead and he's unconscious and there's no one else around to bring her back and

it's that Roxy's in danger from the miles and her server player is dead and Dirk is unconscious and

it's that Dirk doesn't know what to do.

"Jake, did Lil Seb get you out safe?"

Edited 2012-07-10 04:32 (UTC)

"It really isn't that I think you would lie to me. You two are some of my best chums. But, I am afraid to die. I am afraid that I won't be able to come through as session leader and I'll fail my mission."

Jane is dead, Jane is dead? Everyone was relying on her. Everyone wanted her t come through. Everyone was counting on her....and apparently she screws it up. She just continues to cry, crying is the right thing to do because there isn't a thing they can do about her death right now.

Jake just makes sure to hold her a little tighter for all that, if its possible. Now that he's properly bawling himself out he is just going to hold Jane until she does the same.

He gives a wet sniff and looks up at Dirk.

"More or less. We made it through the transportation pad but one of the fucking monsters on my island attacked us mid-flight. I fell from frightfully high up and knocked my self bloody unconscious again."

Jane. Jane, no. Dirk snakes a hand up into her hair and just leaves it there. What he doesn't do is look down at either of them. He keeps his by-now watery gaze on the ceiling.

"Fucking shit."

Deep breaths, Dirk. It's okay. This is a setback. Nothing more.

"All I gotta do is figure out a way to wake back up, and I can revive you. Then--" Shit, then what? What does he do about Jake being unconscious at such a critical moment?

There isn't much else she can really say, she's a mess. Jake's a mess, Dirk is close to becoming a mess with them. They were just one big pile of tears and regrets, and unsaid things back in their universe.

"I'll be okay, now is not the time to panic guys. Now is the time to plan." Even she's still choking up as she tries to speak.

Despite how terrifying all of this was, Jane's words had a lot of wisdom. Rakuen was a reprieve, and possibly the very reprieve they needed to fix this debacle.

"Jane's right. We have time now, we need to rewrite this mess. No suitable adventure involves the death of anyone's friends."

Edited (THAT COULD HAVE BEEN AWFUL) 2012-07-20 22:54 (UTC)

This was really for the best. Okay. He had time to figure this out... Dirk took a deep breath and closed his eyes to think.

"Yeah. It'll all come together. I've got a few ideas." He didn't have all the information he needed. What about Roxy? He'd have to go check on her -- that window was one of hers, right? So if he plugged it in... "It'll require some pretty quick action once we get back, but we can solve this. Leave it to me."

Rakuen was a breath of fresh air, considering what they have to deal with when they get home. If what they were saying was true, then Jane would need to be brought back to life. But how was Roxy?

"Roxy isn't safe." Jane finally releases that from her thoughts. "After all of this time together here. We've forgotten Roxy! She is in danger just as much as we are."

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